– You are angry.

I answered : Yes.. I am.

– You have no right to be angry. Look around.

I said : but I feel abandoned.

– you know this is not true. The very fact that we are talking now proves it.

I insisted : But I asked .. and repeatedly asked, I was confident that they would be comforted by now. But things are getting from bad to worse.

– it is like asking that I stop Diocletian in the middle of the persecution.

I said : would that be wrong? I am sure everyone of the people who lived through it, would be asking the same. Didn’t they?

– yes, but the persecution had to be completed in a specific time, to prepare for Constantine to be ready in place, and to prepare for Athanasius to be ready as well.. you see, those who wanted to stop the persecution, were not aware of the many aspects of the plan for the future, in order to produce the required effect.. for the generation to come afterwards.

I was chocked : in the meantime, those thousands of faithful believers had to be slaughtered in the arenas and suffer this unspeakable horror? And many lost their faith too..

– those who were martyred, it was time for them to rest and come to me.. as for those who abandoned their faith, they had fair warnings.. it was a matter of free will.. besides many had repented too and were accepted back.. the dynamics of these matters are too complicated for you to process, isn’t this what you like to repeat all the time.. ”let God be God” ?

I cried : am I destined to lose? Is this what you mean?

– win or lose is up to you. I never force anyone into anything, you know that very well.

I screamed : No.. No.. I don’t want to be separated from you .. but I also want them to stay with you and to be at peace.. and to have all the blessings and good fortune .. and …

– OK, I know, you want it all..

I calmed down and then sheepishly said :Yes.. I do.. I want it all and..

– and some more..

I said : You are rich.. and.. you can, yes.. you can give them more that what I am asking.. why not.. you can make me happy ..

– Ah.. this is the lesson..

I wondered : I missed something?

– yes.. the most important issue.. what should make you happy .. and above everything else, is that they shall stay with me.. you want me to give them earth and all its glory.. but I want to give them glory that lasts for all eternity.

I pleaded : But I don’t want them suffer.. please.. for the sake of the generations to come..

– leave this to me.. I plan for the generations to come.. and the generations which shall not come.. you are going to leave eventually and come here.. and I shall have to deal with all of the Ahithophels  and Iscariots of this generation and the coming ones as well.. so .. stop you ranting and your rage.. and get back to your senses and let me do my work.. I just got out of my way to comfort you and reassure you, wait for me as you used to do.. remember how many times I surprised you with happiness you couldn’t even imagine..

I insisted : so you shall..ac_____

– No.. no.. stop.. go in peace and you shall have peace.. 

I begged : I want them to have peace too.. please..

– I want that too.. not another word.. you are becoming a nuisance to heaven and earth..

I tried again : I am sorry.. forgive me, but..

– all right.. all right.. granted…

Overjoyed I said : thank you.. thank.. thank you a million times..